void deck
went to void deck to study with mama. not totally that fruitful yet better as compared to studying at home. lots of distraction at home..eg. me going to the mirror every few minutes to adjust my hair and that my dad will start complaining tt the mirror is going to break soon! haha. faint! am i reali tt horribly looking? my dad seems just not being able to accept the fact tt he has such an ADORABLE looking daughter. haha. better not let him sees this, or else, he will reali FAINT!!.
there is this man studying at the void deck with us as well.. at first he was alone and later on, his gf came and accompanied him.. well, this scene flooded my brain with lots of memories and thoughts again..once again...............
suddenly i began to question myself. i think i was quite a horrible gf.. i think i m not so suitable for a relationship afterall.. The girl actually went to 7-11 where she needs to walk thru a very dark path in order to reach. she was back with lots of foods for her bf. She seems sweet. She seems happy. She seems so caring. well, wad abt me?
......i think most prob if i was still in a r/s, i will grumble to my bf and i will be damn angry if he dun bother abt me walking the dark quiet path..i tink i'lll be damn relunctant to do all that eg. to buy food for him cuz i m simply just too lazy to do that. haha..wad a joke.!! i always tot i m still an considerable nice gf.. sweet and caring. suddenly, i felt so cheated. i have cheated myself. i m not good afterall.. maybe is his right decision to chose to leave me.
love isn't all abt telling you how much i love you, how many presents you buy, how many kisses you give, how many hugs you give, how many times you called him " dear", being faithful, giving trust....is abt committment. is abt nurturing the other party. is abt tolerating the other party. is abt changing and adapting to the environment, is abt lots of uncertainties. is abt lots of things i dun know and might not be ever able to know.
ah meishan ah meishan!!!
i guess many individuals' definition abt love changes with they reach different stages life. i din know mine had changed so much over the past 4 years from the day i first tasted the sweetness of being someone's gf and to this day, the bitterness of being trapped in memories.
there is this man studying at the void deck with us as well.. at first he was alone and later on, his gf came and accompanied him.. well, this scene flooded my brain with lots of memories and thoughts again..once again...............
suddenly i began to question myself. i think i was quite a horrible gf.. i think i m not so suitable for a relationship afterall.. The girl actually went to 7-11 where she needs to walk thru a very dark path in order to reach. she was back with lots of foods for her bf. She seems sweet. She seems happy. She seems so caring. well, wad abt me?
......i think most prob if i was still in a r/s, i will grumble to my bf and i will be damn angry if he dun bother abt me walking the dark quiet path..i tink i'lll be damn relunctant to do all that eg. to buy food for him cuz i m simply just too lazy to do that. haha..wad a joke.!! i always tot i m still an considerable nice gf.. sweet and caring. suddenly, i felt so cheated. i have cheated myself. i m not good afterall.. maybe is his right decision to chose to leave me.
love isn't all abt telling you how much i love you, how many presents you buy, how many kisses you give, how many hugs you give, how many times you called him " dear", being faithful, giving trust....is abt committment. is abt nurturing the other party. is abt tolerating the other party. is abt changing and adapting to the environment, is abt lots of uncertainties. is abt lots of things i dun know and might not be ever able to know.
ah meishan ah meishan!!!
i guess many individuals' definition abt love changes with they reach different stages life. i din know mine had changed so much over the past 4 years from the day i first tasted the sweetness of being someone's gf and to this day, the bitterness of being trapped in memories.
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